Wednesday, April 30, 2014

A poetic response to Gary Rupp's painting 'Garden Peace.'


Dream paved visceral fantasies -I averted to plan and execute beyond the
secret garden of my many colored thoughts. resulting in a drab dry day life.

Imagination slithered to actively initiate wishing wells into springing motion,
enhancing the sheer dumb delusion winding into the alternate reality's touch,
which felt so green and real, so warm and surreal, I was lacking will to mesh
fantasies into reality by intending dreams in the gray and smoke filled cities
and large mouths of little minded people of the 'real' world.

Modified peace bent believing, fantasizing of a single wooden bench
resting beneath a Floridian tree, beside a rich rippling pond,
stared a facial reflection hidden in the forest of my dreams
somewhere in the middle of my heart's hopeful seams;

Dreampt a beautiful girl - distancing from the ugly world,
but no sanity comes from hermitry and no sane person says
there is not a word, you cannot create - (and doing nothing, creates nothing.)

Gary Rupp's en plein air painting 'Garden Peace'
would fail to inspire a soul to feel if its canvas was kept
at the bank of a fantasy, un-brushed to the eye's appeal -
and the unwritten poems cannot touch souls And all songs left unsung ...
cannot reach ears, and all truths left untold, no-one hears ...

as this poem lays witness and my soul reveals.
Unwritten thoughts are paintings without colors

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Taking a look at ADHD




Introduction: My inspiration for writing this, is loving a person with ADHD for 18 years. There were many things I could not understand about this person no matter how hard I tried. Even when he would attempt to explain it to me, I failed to recognize the seriousness of the Disorder. I thought he was just lazy for the most part. But I've come to realize, that what is fairly easy for a normal person is thousands of times harder, if not impossible for the ADHD person to accomplish. With that being said, if you know anyone with ADHD in your life, I plead with you to read this. 



In the Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder or ADHD person the contemplative center in the brain does not reflect on things, but rather it reacts to them. Reacting is not paying attention to things but rather giving things attention. 



An example of the difference between giving something attention and paying attention to something, would be to imagine as if there is a child in the room, and every time the child makes a noise you scold the child, rather than actually interact with the child. You raise a very skiddish child that doesn't feel loved and the child feels constantly beat upon. I was never paid attention to I was just given attention and there‘s a big difference. I believe this is how Ceasil was raised as well. Some parents only react to things and they don’t reflect upon them, and they‘re compelled to react quickly. 



This compulsion to be quick about everything is the reason the ADHD person can’t reflect upon things, because reflection takes time. It has been shown that the quick reaction and impatience in the ADHD person is that there is an imbalance of chemicals within the cerebrum. Chemical imbalance in the brain could be secondary to head injury, or chemical poisoning most likely due to heavy metals, which would be environmental. The brain cannot process heavy metals and they get stuck, changing the way that the brain processes electricity which can cause any number of chemical imbalances. The medical institutions to this day declares no certainty as to what actually causes the chemical imbalance in the cerebrum. Genetics is also a suspicion within the role of the ADHD diagnosis.



Another disorder, in which the causative factor is unknown is Fibromyalgia. It is a phantom pain, in which they have no idea the actual source of the issue. They don’t really have any idea why, but for some reason, people just hurt. Mostly this pain is experienced in the limbs, and can be very debilitating. Basically, they have a symptom and they have a diagnosis, for that symptom, but they don’t have any causative diagnosis. They are looking for a cure, which is very hard to find, since it is unknown specifically what causes fibromyalgia. 



They have a treatment for the symptoms for ADHD, such as Ritalin, one of the most popular treatments, but it is not a treatment for the cause, it is a treatment for the symptoms. It is like giving a diabetic person insulin, it just treats the symptom and is not is not a cure. 




As of November 13th 2013, the Center for Disease Control reports that the American Psychiatric Association states in the Diagnostic and Statistical manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5) that 5% of children have ADHD. The first medication ever prescribed for ADHD, was Benzedrine in 1936. The first time stimulants were used as a treatment for ADHD diagnosis was in the 1960’s. The number of people diagnosed with ADHD has fluctuated Since ADHD was first accepted as a diagnosis as the estimates of children in the American population who have ADHD varied widely over time. They claim the difference in the numbers is due to variations in how the diagnostic information was applied.




As per the American Psychiatric Association:
o   Approximately 11% of children 4-17 years of age (6.4 million) have been diagnosed with ADHD as of 2011.
o   The percentage of children with an ADHD diagnosis continues to increase, from 7.8% in 2003 to 9.5% in 2007 and to 11.0% in 2011.
o   Rates of ADHD diagnosis increased an average of 3% per year from 1997 to 2006 and an average of approximately 5% per year from 2003 to 2011.
o   Boys (13.2%) were more likely than girls (5.6%) to have ever been diagnosed with ADHD.
o   The average age of ADHD diagnosis was 7 years of age, but children reported by their parents as having more severe ADHD were diagnosed earlier.




DNA is a massive molecule, so big that if you printed out its chemical structure in 12 font on a piece of 8 x 11 paper and then stacked the pieces of paper on top of one another, the stack would go to the moon and back! DNA is like the library of the history of evolution. DNA is monstrous, it’s huge! And everything has to be exactly right and when it’s not exactly right, that’s when a bloodline will eventually develops a predisposition to issues. 



Basically, at that point, the people with the genetic predisposition are just waiting for an environmental trigger. Somebody could be perfectly healthy their whole life, but an environmental trigger comes along such as an electrical field, and they develop leukemia. Alarm clocks create electrical fields, but only certain people are predisposed to becoming sick from that level, whereas a person who was not predisposed to leukemia would take a much higher dosage before showing any symptoms.




When a child is forming in the womb, if the mother drinks, or smokes, or is under excessive amounts of stress the DNA doesn't form exactly correct. It could be such a minor change that no actual change in the bloodline is noticeable for several generations. If the mother exposes the unborn baby to any change in the DNA by chemical influence or behavior, or even environmental triggers, like being in an electrical field, these factors are always much more magnified with the first 8 weeks of pregnancy. The connection between genetic predisposal, and behavioral issues that are seen in early childhood are a contributing factor, although, it is unlikely it is a cause on its own. They’re finding that an awful lot of problems are due to genetic predisposition, like heart attacks, cancer, cirrhosis of the liver ect ...


Joe thinks the thing that is missing is that there has to be ... he paused to find the right words, and I listened. There has to be an immune system factor, otherwise the body would heal itself. The body has a fantastic capacity to heal itself. I compared the inability for the medical field to discover the actual cause of the chemical imbalance for the ADHD person, within the cerebrum to that of diabetes. Imagine if you will, that we understand the cause of diabetes is an improper production of insulin, or lack thereof. Basically the pancreas doesn't produce enough insulin, and insulin is the carrier of sugars to the proper places for metabolism. 


Without the insulin to carry the sugars to where they belong, so they can be metabolized, the imbalance occurs within the body and sugar levels spike. Now, this is similar to the idea that we understand that the brain doesn't produce enough of the proper chemicals to properly distribute the energy needed throughout the brain, so you end up with a surplus in some areas, and a deficit in others. This diminishes a persons capacity for well being or healthy balance mentally, leading to behavioral disorders, such as ADHD.


Just like we treat the person with diabetes with insulin, we treat the ADHD person with Ritalin or other stimulants. (They’re stimulating the process which is not working to link the in-between) In order to even fathom having a cure for such behavioral issues, we would first need to understand what causes the chemical imbalance to happen in the brain, as far as mechanics of the organ are concerned. Considering the brain is the most complex organ of the body, it would be quite an accomplishment to discover the cause of such a problem. Just like the sugar needs the insulin to properly metabolize, there is a lack of a certain hormone the brain is not properly producing, to carry the norepinephine or dopamine to do their proper job, to the proper areas. It could be something as simple as a protein.


The brain is different than any other organ. In that simple obsessive thinking can do damage or cause issues that are not necessarily physical. The brain can have psychosomatic issues. Whereas other parts of the body are much less likely to be effected in such a manner, like your kidneys are not likely to stop functioning because of obsessive thoughts, whereas the brain will almost always function abnormally, when people are obsessive.


The stimulants used in treating ADHD, such as Ritatin, act as a Central Nervous System Stimulant, or CNS stimulant. Or maybe, just like the diabetic person can easily injest too much sugar for what their body processes can handle, perhaps there is a substance we ingest that is not properly being metabolized due to the chemical imbalance, like an allergy.


 It’s entirely possible for example, we know that candida flowerings will produce toxins, and it’s entirely possible that those candida flowerings can effect different people differently, especially due to genetic predisposition. It could be as simple as an allergy to the bad bacteria produced by the flowering of candida, which would make perfect sense because the candida problem is growing more increasingly prevalent, just as the ADHD.


 Imagine the number of people who are suddenly showing up with an intolerance to wheat, and now the number of wheat and grain allergy is through the roof. So why are people so much more sensitive to foods now, then they used to be? The question remains unanswered. There must be a reason why people are becoming more and more sensitive to allergies. There are many possibilities since food has become altered in the 20th century. Like the fact that they bleach rice and bread and add loads of sugar to many products. Could these dietary changes withing the United States, beginning in the 20th century have a significant bearing on the slow genetic changes, which alter our DNA and slowly change the encoding over the years?


Joe believes in theory, that evolution is a two fold process. Firstly, that there‘s plant evolution where plants evolve to accommodate the changes in climate conditions. For example; the plants can sense years ahead of time that it‘s going to get colder or warmer, so they change their way of doing things, or their physiology, to accommodate the climate changes. 


Secondly,  the changes that the plants make are read by the animals that eat them, and they change also to accommodate the plant physiology. They can read the changes the plants have made, and because of years of experience, know what those changes mean. Then they can alter their physiology too. This has been going on for so long, that the animals understand that, and will change accordingly, like grow thicker fur and more fat tissue if it’s going to get colder, or less fur if it’s going to get warmer. 

Grain fed cows?
Joe thinks that when the diet is changed so drastically, it completely confuses the genetic readings that help things evolve and we‘re just randomly having meaningless genetic things pop up, such as peanut allergies and gluten allergies. A lot of the genetic changes are resulting in allergies and immune system deficiencies. That isn't necessarily all of the changes that are there, but those are some of the changes that we are seeing, because of environmental triggers. As more environmental triggers take place, we’ll see more of the changes over time. 

Actual bleach is used to make rice white.

Let’s say that the small birds which eat the seeds read the changes in the physiology of the seeds grown by the plants, and then the birds change their physiology to accommodate the changes in the seeds. And then the things that eat the small birds, like the cats, will also change their physiology. Throughout the food chain, everything changes as a result of the changes in plants. We could be screwing up the physiology of our entire food chain, by using pesticides on plants and feeding the animals the wrong foods, which we eat.


The symptoms of ADHD are not necessarily life threatening like diabetes can be, however, the chemical imbalance can cause depression and mental anguish, leading to antisocial and sociopathic behavior. What if it was simply an allergy, causing an allergic reaction that would compromise the immune system and somehow compromise the reaction of the neurostimulators in the brain? So many possibilities. ADHD and other similar conditions seem to be linked to subperformance of the dopamine and nor-epinephrine functions. But why is there a subperformance of the dopamine and norepinephrine?


Dopamine is a speed bump for the brain, and also a messenger hormone. it slows it down, and makes it peaceful. Without it, there’s no peace, there’s no relaxation. Without proper dopamine distribution, the brain is like a runaway train, firing haphazardly, rather than in an organized fashion.

Norepinephrine is a hormone that is released by the adrenal medulla and by the sympathetic nerves and functions as a neurotransmitter. It is also used as a drug to raise blood pressure.


Norepinephrine, is basically a messenger cell, or a hormone, whose job is to stimulate and instruct the neurons. The Norepinephrine is in charge of concentration to the fullest. Norepinephrine travels over to the neurons and is like, hey buddies, it’s time to read this book and concentrate. But in the ADHD person, it is an extreme challenge simply to focus on one sentence, let alone a whole book. Basically, the governor, or the carrier of Dopamine and Norepinephine, for some reason is not properly doing its job.


There are three types of perception; there’s awareness, reflection and intent or will which is the same concept. The people who have ADHD actually do great with awareness, physically, but it’s not useful to them, because in order for it to be useful, the awareness has to be cataloged and understood. They have to pay attention to things to understand them, but they struggle greatly with this cognitive skill, because the little messenger cells fire more often then they’re supposed to in certain areas, causing hyperactivity in some sections of the brain. And also stifling activity in other areas by starving them. Another words, there’s supposed to be a governor in there to prevent too much activity, so that some of that energy goes to reflection. But because there’s so much activity in the awareness mode, where they are aware of everything around them constantly and have to notice everything in their surroundings, they don’t have enough energy in the brain left to focus on things.


Let‘s say you have a family and you feed all of the food to a couple members of the family who finish everything, so there are no scraps left. That means all the other members are starving. Imagine if you will, that you are in a movie theater, and that there are movies showing on the left wall, the center wall, and the right wall, and you can hear equally the soundtracks for all three. It’s going to be virtually impossible to watch just one movie, because sometimes the other movies will distract you. The end result is, that you don’t get to see one movie all the way through. This is what it’s like to have ADHD. Though you have an incomplete understanding of all three movies, you don’t have a complete understanding of any one. There is just too much stimulation and too many distractions in the everyday life of the ADHD person. Whereas a normal person can block out the screens on the left and the right, and watch just the one in front of them. The normal person can do that, because blocking things out is part of the brains job, and in the ADHD person, that part of the job is not being done properly. 


The good news with ADHD, is that the body responds to exercises and so does the brain. You can exercise the brain to do things more normally, which is not curing ADHD, but the result would be the same as curing it. Another words, they just bypass the way that the brain normally works and create a new pathway, that overcomes the problem.

The people who have ADHD don’t disperse their brain food evenly. There is a section of the brain for intent and if you learn how to use it, it can direct enough food to the intent so that you learn how to have unbending intent. Then you can accomplish things that the other parts of your mind are incapable of. Each section of the brain has its own function and if one section is eating all the brain food, then the other sections are starving. It’s like spending all of your money on going out to eat at a fancy five star restaurant, and then not being able to afford creamer the next day for your coffee, or clothes, or all of the other things that you need for living. That’s what an imbalance in the brain does it causes rich and poor sections. The rich sections are hyperactive, and the poor sections, function poorly.The ADHD person is aware of things, they see them, but they can’t keep track of them. They give things attention, but they don’t pay attention to them. They’ll notice what’s going on, but they won’t have any idea what to do about it, because they can’t focus on the issue at hand, long enough to do anything.


You can change the chemistry of your mind with intent. If a person with a hyperactive awareness intends to slow it down, it will slow down, if they have unbending intent. But, the problem is, is that it’s very hard, very, very, very, very, very, very hard for a person with ADHD to learn unbending intent, because it requires the ultimate concentration. Unbending intent is when the brain says, I’m going to do this, or die trying, and believes it. 


And that’s what makes a sorcerer, the sorcerer learns to use unbending intent, to effect changes in his own mind and the chemistry of his own mind, in order to create a talent that he wouldn't otherwise develop. This is viewed as the Artist, or the artistry of life, which is to effect the chemistry of your brain to get it to do what you want it to do, rather then what you've been trained to want by your upbringing. By the modalitly of the times. When somebody feels that strongly about something, the brain responds by reshaping itself to comply.


People who have had their hemispheres severed from one another by operations, have sections of the brain that cannot contact one another anymore, and so they can actually learn to live a normal life, by having sections change what they do, so that they compensate. 


For example a man had his arm cut off, and it hurt him terribly because his arm was locked in a fist, and as he was locked in a fist, he was straining his muscles so hard that they hurt constantly like a cramp. The doctors brought in a box and they had him sit down at a table, and they put the box on the side that the man‘s arm had been cut off. The box had a mirror in it, which reflected his other arm so that he could see it as if it was the arm that had been cut off. Then they told him to make a fist with each hand and then unclench it and open it while watching the reflection of his good hand, where he didn't have a hand, so it looked like his hand was opening. It looked to him like the missing hand was opening and that convinced him that it was open. And because he saw his hand open, the cramp stopped. Because seeing it open like that he believed it was open, and believing it was open gave him the intent to open it. Intent can absolutely be based on illusion, Joe said, and it’s just will, it’s just what you want, which is why, it‘s so important to be careful what you want!


We do not understand why the brain does not properly regulate the dopamine and norepinephrine distribution, causing ADHD Joe had a feeling that it was a two fold thing, that there was a genetic predisposition, and then an environmental trigger, and if you never come in contact with the environmental trigger then you never get it. But if you have the genetic predisposition and come in contact with an environmental factor, then one is more predisposed.


However, The very infamous Wilhelm Reich theorized which was later proven true in studies done in many colleges, that if a mother didn't spend enough time with a baby, the synapses in the brain did not form properly and they were produced entirely without compassion and could not identify with any other animal, even of its own species. It wasn't just a personality trait, it was an actual physical change of the environmental factor of the mother or any other physical contact not being present for more than 17 hours a day. That seemed to be the magic number, if the baby got 17 hours a day of physical contact, they were okay, but anything less they were not okay. Close to 17 hours of human contact the baby would develop severe paranoia and would be skiddish of everything and as you took it down from there the less attention the baby received the more serious the disturbance was. What ended up happening was that environmental factors changed the physiology. We have examples where physiology can be changed by genetics and/or environmental factors. It could be either one or both, usually both. This makes discovering the cause of ADHD more difficult, because we can’t narrow it down.


If the baby doesn't receive around 17 hours of attention a day, they are predisposed to become needy and if the baby receives hardly any attention at all, they become delinquents. For example; scientists did a test on Rhesus Monkeys and they deprived the baby of contact with the mother for so many hours a day and depending upon the number of hours they were deprived contact they developed different symptoms, ranging from skittishness to complete sociopathy. The ones that got hardly any contact with the mother tried to fight and rape one another and they were completely antisocial. The ones that got almost enough time wanted to hug each other all day. The monkeys that were deprived of the most attention as babies, became total delinquents unable to function normally with others in any social aspect. The ones who got enough time with the mother, were normal. Scientists also found that if they gave the child a surrogate mother that the results were the same. It didn't actually have to be a real mother. It was the physical contact that mattered, not who the physical contact was with. When a woman gets pregnant, it’s a good idea to buy a wool fleece and then she should sleep on it. Then give it to the baby after it is born, and have the baby sleep on it. Since it smells like mom, as far as the baby knows, he/she is sleeping on mom.


That spurred the medical community to suggest that new parents buy the wool fleece and if the baby lies on it, it has the same effect as physical contact because the tactile nature of the wool fools the baby into thinking it is in contact with another human being. There are any number of chemical imbalance issues a baby can acquire from neglect. The nerve endings in the brain don‘t form properly with infantile neglect, as proven in the above mentioned study, and once that happens, it’s irreversible. However, with unbending intent it can be compensated for. But unbending intent is very complicated to understand and very few people understand how to execute it. The brain needs to be formed properly in order to have certain cognitive thoughts such as that of love. The ones who got no attention in the study had improperly formed brains and they could not experience love. But the brain is mysterious and wonderful thing. We can retrain our brains if we want to, with will alone, although it is the hardest work one can aspire. This behavioral abnormality is found to be prevalent with inmates in prison, and that their brains did not form properly because of neglect. They also found that if they put the child with the mother in cages they formed normally. But if they put glass in front of each other that they could touch or smell one another and yet they could still see each other then the brain couldn't form normally and it aggravated the child.


ADHD people are the people who would most benefit from meditation. Comfort moves help the ADHD person feel like they are more in control without actually changing anything. It‘s what they do to relax. Comfort moves encapsulate repetitive motions. Joe‘s autistic nephew does repetitive hand motions to comfort himself. This is not the same as actual meditation. Meditation is a conscious reflection that one has decided to practice and carry through with. In order for Ceasil to begin to recover, from his ADHD symptoms, or at least decrease them, for the better part, meditation would be crucial.


 Little things, like reading a book, or simple everyday activities, like remembering to pick up the milk on your way home from work are much more difficult to achieve for an ADHD person rather than someone who is not an ADHD person. Mostly everything we do in life is a challenge. For the ADHD person, focusing on one thing at a time is a challenge, because their brains are constantly processing so much information all at once. They become drastically overwhelmed. It is not their fault they are this way, and to learn to focus on one thing at a time, especially when there are any added distractions present is overwhelmingly difficult and it requires great will to muster up the concentration to do so. 


For the person who is not ADHD, they may still encounter some challenges that are exceedingly difficult, and require a great deal of concentration and will. An overweight person could say; I‘m fat, but I don‘t want to exercise, because it’s hard. But so what if it’s hard? An alcoholic person could say, I don’t want to stop drinking, because it’s hard. But so what if it’s hard? If it’s what you have to do, to improve the quality of your life, so what if it’s harder for you than anyone else? Everyone is faced with challenges, it called life, and it’s challenging!


For the ADHD person, learning to reflect rather than simply react is the key to improvement, or even recovery! Let’s not forget, miracles happen everyday and in order for them to happen to us, we must believe in them. Ceasil seeks out video games, Movies, and TV shows, that are fast moving with lots going on, so this way, rather than learning to create a better environment he‘s creating his own own environment. Instead of learning how to deal with the environment in a constructive manner, he‘s changing the environment, so it‘s more comfortable, but it‘s actually making it worse for him to focus in the real world, because he‘s not living in the real world, perse.


The cerebral cortex of the brain is overstimulated in the ADHD person so that they produce too much excitement. They are too excitable and it causes them to react quickly rather than to reflect upon things. Learning to reflect on things requires a completely different chemical balance in the brain. You can teach your brain to have a different chemical balance just by putting it in a different environment. A good exercise for the ADHD person would be crossword puzzles, since being quick and impatient isn't helpful, and crossword puzzles require patience. Completing a crossword puzzle would be very frustrating at first because he‘d be bored half way through the crossword puzzle and find himself thinking about 20 different other things. But forcing the brain to do exercises which require patience, are beneficial because over time the brain will release different chemicals to deal with different tasks.

 Also, exercises like playing chess, scrabble or suduku are very good for the ADHD person because they can force themselves to pay attention to something slow, enhancing patience and focusing skills. What a lot of ADHD people will do, is things like play scrabble and read the newspaper at the same time so that they still have tons of stimulation and that‘s not the answer! The answer is to train your brain to do something really slow so that over time you can learn to release the chemicals that cause your brain to be contemplative and patient, rather than excited and impatient.


When the medical industry began prescribing Ritalin to ADHD persons predominantly in the 1980’s, Joe had read all about it and he says that’s how began to learn about the ADHD person. Ritalin actually blocks the brain from producing the over excitment chemicals. You talk to yourself and you determine what your identity is, and you compensate for it without actually fixing it because its easier. So you learn how to behave in such a way that other people don‘t notice things about you so much. So even when the ADHD person learns to compensate for the disorder, the problem is still there. They may overcompensate in some areas, by coming off as egotistical, or cocky, when they are just trying to keep up.


But overcompensating doesn't help the ADHD person actually overcome their day to day challenges. It is just a way to cope, but it doesn't actually improve anything physiologically. The underlying issue is still there, so overcompensating doesn't really help, because it doesn't change the underlying issues that are taking place in the brain, it only changes the appearance to others. The brain has a tremendous capacity to change, and to compensate for its shortcomings, but one has to INTEND IT. 



That means that you have to want to change badly enough to do whatever it takes, and then do it. There was a man who was bad at math, and math was the career path that he wanted, and so he practiced math everyday to the point where he could do multiplications of numbers in the thousands in his head. He went from someone who was terrible at it, to the best in he world. The brain can do tremendous things, you just have to learn and intend for it to happen. That‘s basically what sorcery is, the mastery of intent, and intending is the hardest thing to do. It has to be one simple belief, one where nothing at all gets in the way, to compromise, otherwise you‘ll sabotage it.


 Imagine if you will that we have a computer on the right side of the room and an outlet on the left side of the room.  If you plug in an extension cord, it will act as a connector.  It carries the juice. The dopamine doesn’t cause the cell to fire,  it just gives the potential to allow the cell to fire. Plugging the chord in doesn’t turn the computer on, but it gives it the potential to turn on. Just like sugar in a Red Blood Cell doesn’t cause a muscle to contract, it just gives it the potential by giving it the energy. The dopamine is not a causative part of the equation; it’s a passive part of the equation in brain cell connectivity. The brain cells, also known as neurons themselves decide to fire.  So theoretically, It’s not that there’s less dopamine in the ADHD  person, it’s that it’s not properly distributed. It’s being used up by the occipital lobe, leaving attention deficit to the rest of the brain. And this is how Hyperactivity contributes to Attention Deficit as well.




Joe went on to talk about neuro-pathways as he rocked in his brown  leather lazy boy, “When you have a thought, a thought is a sequence of neurons firing together, so if I have a thought  I wish to communicate and then I can visualize it in my mind and then I have to put it into words, which is a completely different set of neuro-pathways, and over time we develop habits in our neuropathways that make us comfy, that are habitual and the neuropathways are incredibly strong.



A neoropathway is a memory of how to create a thought. It’s like when the rain runs down the side of a mountain it creates a gully and it makes it easier for the water to flow there next time as if the water remembers where to go. So instead of having to think about decisions and contemplate upon them and create new neuropathways it is easier to simply use one of those neuropathways already created which leads to habitual and obsessive thinking.



And the entire decision or reasoning complex is done by the neuropathway which is already created This is true of everybody, not just the ADHD person. And so that’s one of the reasons that religions are successful, because they teach people neuropathways so that they don’t ever have to think. Every time something happens they just know what to do because it’s been drilled into them. The neuropathway has already been created. They simply execute it and they know what to do, with conviction. They have no decisions to make, like robots, which relieves a lot of stress. One of the effects of this is that it greatly reduces stress because deciding things can be stressful. A lot of people are indecisive so decisions are always stressful. Religious people tend to be more relaxed, because they have fewer decisions to make. It’s less free thinking which they misinterpret as a blessing. This repetitive and lax way of thinking creates great ignorance, because it doesn't teach you how to solve problems or how to manage resources it simply teaches you how to react to thing by rote.


Rote is like let’s say that you go into the military and they drill you on how to March, they teach you how to memorize steps by not giving you a choice but you memorize things and do them. You don’t have to understand. It it’s like a parrot talking. By rote means it doesn’t matter if you understand just as long as you memorize. They don’t know what they’re saying; they just get a positive response so they do it again. Maybe the parrot gets a cracker, or the military soldier gets praise from his drill sergeant for remembering. But he doesn’t need to understand why they march left so many steps and then right so many steps, he only has to know how to do the routine. And in a lot of cases it’s almost better if you don’t understand and you just memorize, because the environment will praise you for the latter but not the former.



 Like a religious person would be positively reinforced by their religious community for simply responding to a decision making experience by quoting the bible and doing what they believe God says. Parrots just imitate what they hear they have no idea what it means. A lot of the education that we do these days is by rote. And what this is doing is building neuropathways and rewarding people for memorization, even if they have no idea what it means. So what we’re doing is raising an entire society that does not value decision making. It’s no different than training a dog. That doesn’t mean they understand the information it just means they've memorized it and education should be about understanding and not about memorization alone. But that requires a complete change of what we value in society. What we value is the soldier mentality and not the philosopher mentality. 



A true free thinker cannot be controlled, only influenced. Children would benefit greatly from a method of teaching to understand as well as memorize. But, this would be quite rare since it’s a completely different style of teching from the normal way of teaching. Teaching Free Thinking would be teaching people to create new neuro pathways and redefine ones. We just fall into the habit. Certain environment triggers will cause certain neuropathways to fire. Now habitual thinking encourages itself. The more you think something the more you’re encouraged to think it. The human brain is built with all kinds of mechanisms which cause it to be obsessive. Recognizing obsession and avoiding it, or compensating for it, is a huge leap in consciousness. Most children can do this around the age of 2 or 3 but if the brain is not functioning properly then this step can’t be realized without compensating. The pathways rather than developing normally develop haphazardly. This is self-absorption. Anytime you have a thought you make it easier to have that thought again because those neurons remember firing together.

There are six sections or lobes of the brain the frontal lobe is the cerebral cortex that is where all the higher functions take place. Every time there’s a brain imbalance it’s a chemical imbalance. Now the question is which came first, the imbalance in thoughts which caused the chemical imbalance or the imbalance in chemical which caused the imbalance in thoughts. Often times, it’s a vicious cycle. It’s a feedback loop where one causes the other cause the other and so on. Because it can go both directions, so it’s hard to tell what’s the cause and what’s the effect. Most often it is the chemicals causing the imbalanced thoughts.



Moving on then we have the parietal lobe, the temporal lobe, the occipital lobe, the medulla oblongata and the cerebellum.



The medulla oblongata or the brain stem does the self-regulation. Heart rate, food intake, sleep, it basically oversees everything that is not conscious, like breathing.



There’s the cerebellum, which is responsible for coordination and balance and also for muscle memory. Like if you remember a dance routine, that’s where you’re going to remember it.



The occipital lobe is just for vision. The human eye is the most advanced organ of any animal anywhere. We can do things like see colors and read, we can recognize things that no other animal can like patterns and shapes. There’s one guy who had that part of his brain disconnected from the rest of his brain so he’ll look at something like his wife or a Christmas tree and he can’t tell what it is. He can reason what things are but he can’t recognize them.



Then there’s the temporal lobe for hearing, emotions, behavior and memory, this is where sorcery takes place in temporal and occipital lobes, because that’s where you have visions and where you learn to recognize things.When you dream the occipital lobe is still stimulated even though it’s not reading the eyes and that’s why you believe you see things in your dreams. Every single part of the brain does more than one function. There isn't any part of the brain with the exception of the medulla oblongata that only does one function.



The sections of the brain are the gray matter and then you have glands. The brain is a self-regulating organ, which means it’s always in danger of obsessing, because once it has imbalanced thoughts it creates imbalanced chemistry which creates more imbalanced thoughts.

Then there’s the parietal lobe the lobe on the left side of the brain responsible for intellect, thought, reasoning and memory. This memory is remembering your feelings. This is where the ego takes place as well in the parietal lobe, because this is a reasoning center. There are different types of thoughts there are some thoughts which take place very slowly over time because they are cumulative and there are other thoughts that are instantaneous and they process differently in the brain. The better you are able to process the long thoughts that take place over time the better you are able to be balanced because then you are able to see things over the long term rather than seeing things as if every single issue that ever takes place is a life and death issue. That’s a very unhealthy way to see things. It robs you of energy whereas these long term thoughts are thoughts you see over a long period of time and helps you to put things in the proper perspective.



The theory is that it is the occipital lobe which is the glutton of the brain in ADHD person, eating too many of the dopamine, causing it to be hyperactive. This is how the other parts of the brain will starve and why Ritalin helps because it is a reuptake inhibitor and is supposed to slow down one part of the brain from using too much dopamine. The Ritalin is the governor to prevent any part of the brain from eating too much dopamine.

ADHD people notice everything they see and that makes them feel something about many things all at once overloading the system. That connection of everything they see burns up a lot of energy. They have a lot of random feelings and that’s why they are not empathetic people because they’re feelings are all over the map. They’re not very compassionate towards other people, because it is too difficult for them to read the feelings of other people when their own feelings are overstimulated about everything that they see.


In that world of Ceasil’s own feelings, there isn't room to compensate for anyone else. The ADHD person is overwhelmed with their own feelings and they have no energy, or very little energy left over to consider other people’s feelings. The emotions they perceive are more important to them than anything else because of the drastic and overwhelming feeling they are receiving from the hyperactivity of the brain cells in the occipital lobe.


Learning not to associate feelings with everything you see is something we naturally lean as babies. But for whatever reason the ADHD person never learns that, and it could just be that the environment that they were in caused a chemical malfunction in the brain and so they never learned it which is why a lot of them will become normal as they get older, because the brain actually recovers.

Some do some don’t. It’s a very complicated issue. It isn't really torture it’s just a lack of discipline. They are hypertensive to things. There are two types of sensitivity, there’s sensitivity like being compassionate and then there’s sensitivity like being an open wound. They may think that people are hurting them all the time because of the hypersensitivity. Like when I would move Ceasils pen from its particular spot he would become very angry as if I was attacking him. This is not rational at all, but to him it was. It made me feel like he thought I was a monster. They think they are very important and humility comes from the parts of the mind that are starving. It’s very hard for hyperactive people to learn humility.


Ritalin is not the only answer; the best answer is for them to learn to redesign the way the brain functions. You may not be able to make it function normally but you can compensate. That’s the great thing about the brain, is that it has phenomenal ability and elasticity to compensate, all it requires is intent, or the free will thinking to create the new neuropathways to compensate.



The AHD person can retrain their brain; it’s just a matter of believing, or learning how to use intent. I changed to accommodate Ceasil, which basically made it easy for him, but the best thing I could have done was make it so difficult that he had to change. Or want to badly enough. Either way, at the end of the day, just like it is more difficult for an overweight person to exercise, rather than somebody who is not overweight, or more difficult for an alcoholic to stop drinking, as opposed to someone who is not an alcoholic, it is still possible for the overweight person to learn how to exercise regularly, and it is still possible for the alcoholic to quit drinking forever. It just requires a greater will or intent for some people to accomplish things rather than others that it may be easier for.

But it is not impossible for the ADHD person to retrain their brain, it just requires great will and effort to do so. I like to say, that the single most significant factor in my life, or way of thinking, was that no matter how difficult it was for me to change so that I could be healthy or balanced, that I always had hope. Everything that we perceive in life starts with believing. That’s all it takes to change, is to believe it is possible, and then anything is possible and miracles can happen.




Ceasil believed that there was no way for him to change, because he did not believe it was possible, but I always knew in my heart that it wasn’t the case. I couldn’t stand by and watch him suffer with depression among other things without doing something about it. I quieted my voice for many years to reduce the stress and make life easier for the both of us, but that still didn’t change the fact that he would suffer, day in and day out with his ADHD symptoms.

AS time went on, over the years, I began to look for answers and understand why he was the way he was. To be honest I never took his ADHD diagnosis seriously, because I didn’t understand it. It took a great deal of searching for me to understand it, I had to create new neuropathways myself, to enhance my way of thinking and encourage myself to understand his behavior as well as I could. I have included some of the medical and anatomical information about ADHD in this chapter, but that is not the main reason for writing this. I am simply writing this because I cared about Ceasil, and I wanted to understand his struggles so I could help him. The main focus of this book is to strike a chord in everyone’s heart who is unhappy and suffers, whether it is from addiction or medical diagnosis like ADHD. Anyone who thinks there is no hope for them; there is hope for everyone if you believe, because the brain is a magical wonderful organ that has capabilities beyond anything most of us can fathom.




End ADHD person chapter #1.

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Dear Reader,

I hope you enjoyed my chapter about the ADHD person. This chapter will be part of the second book in my self help series: The Artistry of LIFE. The first book in the series, knocking on the WHITE DOOR, is a very simply written book, in which I introduce what I have learned about behavior modification. I was depressed, and also faced with many challenges in my life in regards to the people closest to me. My boyfriend of 18 years, suffers ADHD. Because I could not understand his distant behavior, nor make him happy, given his open admittance of depression, I moved away from him, thinking he'd be happier if I set him free. After doing so, he opened up to me more than ever about his ADHD. I had given him the first book, in which I talk about his negative behavior, and how it effected me. This really opened his eyes. He claimed he actually felt a lot differently then he had communicated over the years. I thought many things about him that weren't true, because of the way he negatively expressed his thoughts. Once he realized what I was saying, he began to open up to me more then ever about his ADHD. With 1 in every 10 people in the US diagnosed with ADHD, I hope this series of books can bring to light the difficulties the ADHD person suffers, and share techniques on how to cope.


If you liked this chapter, and are interested in following my story, and learning from my life experiences, you may purchase the first book here:

The Artistry of LIFE: Knocking on the WHITE DOOR Paperback

The Artistry of LIFE: Knocking on the WHITE DOOR ebook

Sincerely,

Alison Breskin